Well that's embarrassing

I was looking into doing some writing Lifeway. It has something that I had originally applied for before my degree, before Reson became a Youth Pastor, and before we got back into a church family when we moved back to Florida. Needless to say, I am a bit embarrassed thinking about what I could have possibly written. I'm not sure that it my best work. I'm hoping that they allow me to resubmit an application because at this point the work that they have under my name is pretty crummy.
I sit here looking back at my life back in 2008, and I am thinking that I wouldn't have hired me for that position either. I'm hoping for a second chance that in two years a person can have a greater spiritual growth, and that I am able to convey it better in my writing. We will see...