Thursday, June 10, 2010

Waiting... waiting... waiting... FINALLY

I had been waiting for it. I was waiting for the moment that God would give me something to say. As we have been doing the discipleship program, it was asked that we write in our journals daily. However, this week, it was not happening. I have been reading "Vintage Jesus" (great so far), but I had nothing to say. I like some key points that were made, however my mind was not able to put into words my thoughts. The thoughts in my mind have been scattered and on many topics.
Then it happened, today, it was filled with meeting with some great friends discussing Co-op scheduling, and just a nice time of talking. I put the boys to bed, and then Satan decided to use someone against me. I should have known something was coming because like we have told the youth in the program numerous times, your friends are going to be stumbling blocks to what you are trying to pursue here. Satan will use whomever (or whatever) he can to bring you down as far as he can.
I'm grateful that I just stayed silent. I'm sure to the person who was outspoken about their problem felt that it was a cop-out or being a wuss, but it isn't. It is hard to turn away from defending yourself from an attacker. We are so selfish in the world that if someone hurts us in anyway, we automatically assume they are vindictive. We assume that they want to hurt us, and then at any chance we jump at them to defend the all mighty powerful ME!
No, no, God said clearly through David in Psalm 2:4-5, "Don't sin by letting anger gain control over you. Think about it overnight and remain silent. Offer proper sacrifices, and trust in the Lord." Hmmm... Yes! Now, that is what I needed. In my silence Lord, you help me gain control, and it is through this sacrifice of selfishness that I trust in YOU!

John Sherill has a song called "Obey."

I will trust, I will obey,
I will follow where You lead, come what may.
I will die to myself, and Your cross I will take,
I will trust You Lord, I will trust You,
(I will trust and obey).

     You alone are worthy of my offering,
     You alone are worthy of my praise.
     You alone are Holy, You are all I need,
     So find in me a faithful heart I pray.
It is that reminder that we are to be faithful to Him, and to be faithful of things that He 
commands. Remain silent, and allow the Lord to work in your heart so that you 
may have obedience and faith in Him. 

1 comment:

Amber said...

I would love to hear a little bit more about vintage Jesus - I've heard about it before but could you tell me more?